Muthart agreed to go to a rehab facility the following week. She later learned her mother had recorded the conversation which included her saying the world was ‘too evil’ – her mom felt this would be the proof needed to get a court order for psychiatric commitment.
Yet the next day she purchased meth and took “a larger dose than I’d ever used before.”
The Incident: Tragedy Meets Delusion
The next morning, Muthart was still high and hallucinating. From what she can recollect, she wandered along a railroad track — an act consistent with drug-induced psychotic behavior as noted in forensic psychiatric evaluations.
“It was then I remember thinking that someone had to sacrifice something important to right the world, and that person was me,” she recalled.
“I thought everything would end abruptly, and everyone would die, if I didn’t tear out my eyes immediately.”
