It ripped me to shreds emotionally when she insisted on nursing from me against my prohibitions. My kid was being rejected by me.
Bella was hungry and wanted to eat; she wanted to be closer to Mommy; she wanted to feel protected; and she wanted to be intimate. I was unable to provide her these things.
Eleanor Bahneman Bella was sent to Oakland’s Children’s Benioff two days after her birth.
Her parents were there to give her the love and support she needed to survive,
even though she seemed little and frail with all the wires surrounding her. I anticipated that my path to parenting would be unique. But Eliza was certain that her baby deserved a party.
