She shocked many by posting photos of herself during this period—her face covered in sores and her eyes glazed over—illustrating the severe toll addiction had taken on her body and mind.
“This is what I looked like, daily, for years,” she wrote alongside the images. “This is what my husband dealt with. This is what my little girls walked in on. This is what my family and friends saw,
On the rare occasions I left the house. I was unwell. I was fading away. I was so far gone I thought I could never recover. I was so lost I couldn’t imagine a life without using.
I just wanted to give up. I didn’t realize how close I was to losing everything.” Before she began recovery, Matos said the family home was in disarray,
And her daughters frequently missed school. She would isolate herself in the bathroom or her bedroom for hours while struggling with her substance use.
